Demon Hunting...?

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

"Fine, be angry. I'll just be over by my door until you decide you want to be civil. Obviously Mal wont open the doors unless we try so we don't have much choice in the matter. Let me know when you're ready." I bit back the urge to remark as always. See I could show some restraint.

[Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison]

"I've explained this to you," he said. "Several times, if I remember. I don't know anything about love, or real relationships or... anything. Expecting me to react when the only time a woman's been interested me was when they wanted something and they usually came onto me dressed in things that would make a prostitute blush is just waiting for a failure."

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

"Fine." Deciding to change things up I walked straight towards him until we were only an inch apart, hesitating for a moment before continuing. "And all I've ever wanted from you is you. No other reason. Why is that so hard for you to understand?" Sighing I moved away from him.

[Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison]

"Because, you'd be the first," he said simply.

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

"And I can't tell if you're interested at all or if you're only interested in sex since apparently you're an emotional retard,"

[Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison]

"Yes, well," he said stiffly. "That's life."

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

"And Mal for some reason thinks you care if something were to happen to me and here I don't. You felt bad about Sam but that doesn't equiate to more than respect for me. I even had hope there might be a possibilty but anytime I've tried to be forward you've shut me down, pushed me out. You're afraid of letting someone in. Afraid of letting me in. Blame me for that all you want but that was going on long before Raven. So grow up and grow a pair." Looking him in the eye. "For once in this whole thing, tell me in words what you want from me."

[Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison]

"Because i AM afraid, alright?" he snarled angrily. "You want the truth? Fine. I'm scare. I'm terrified. All my life has been pain and loss and being used nad abused by whoever needs something. then you come along, apparently not wanting anything from me, and I;'m expected to just believe that? To just brush aside all of that abuse and think that there;s no catch? That everything's going to go along fine and hunky dory and I'm not going to wake up one morning to find a pile of ash where you're supposed to be?" his breathe was slightly ragged as his fists clenched. "Dammit, Rogue, I'd like nothing better to let you in, but every time I've let someone get close, the shit has hit the fan. they've either died, left or stabbed me in the back, I have a LIFETIME of that to contend with. It's not that easy!"

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

"And no one else has baggage? No one else has lived through horrors. Everyone has baggage. What matters is if you let it rule you. I could have changed your view on things and I would possibly like the chance to do so but you make it very hard sometimes to want to."

[Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison]

Doc was managing, with a degree of difficulty, not to growl. she just didn't get it and probably never would. She said everyone had hardships, he was fine with that. But when the one light point of your life was finding the sister you were beginning to think wasn't even alive and she didn't remember you, it was pretty obvious 'horrors' didn't cover it. And in all honesty, he was getting tired of trying to explain it to her.

He stalked out fo the roomagain, not trusting his own voice. Dammit, Mal, he thought. The hell were you tyhinking. this wasn't going to work.

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

I was certainly running out of things to say or do, the only options my brain was coming up with were to kiss or hit him. Either of which had more of a chance to make things worse than help.

"Fine, you say you want to be friends but hint you'd rather be more and when I try for more you pull away. I can't read you and it's pissing me off. Hell, I could read Raven better than you. With you I have to gamble on what you are feeling." A thing that at first intrigued her was now pissing her off to no end.

[Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison]

"Keeps people off balance, easier to take them by surprise," he said. "It's what i do, i always do. Why? because I. Can't. TRUST! You say everyone's been through hardship, seen horrors, YOU DON"T KNOW! What I've seen, what I've done what I've gone through, all of it, all of it, it's more than just past, it's me. It's what shaped me, made me, it's who I am and I can't just shrug it off like a jacket," his voice was becoming more off kilter, frantic, an almost crazy lilt to it. "I don't open myself up, don't show the real me, simply because I don't know the real me. The serious, deadly killer, the friendly go-ffer, the crazy, distracting interresting person, i just don't know. Can you help me," he turned at hte door, looking at her with eyes that seemed to flicker through emotions to fast to fallow. "Well? Can you?"

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

"I'd be willing to try." Can't make promises I can't keep, but I can try... I'd like to try...

[Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison]

"Try, try, everyone says that," he muttered. "Everyone says it, no one can do. I"m broken lost with nothing to go by but my sister... my sister... and if she knew..." he gave a shuddering breathe as he tried to colm down. He'd never lost control like that in front of anyone. Ever.

["Rogue" Annie Amina Cross]

I wanted to do something btu I couldn't make up my mind on what to do so I found myself continuing to stand where I was. Deciding to wait to comment until I would read him better. Or else I was going to say something that might make things worse.