Post by xzavier on Oct 10, 2009 5:03:01 GMT -5
Referred by: Andrea (Rogue)
Name: Xzavier Hayden Edwards
Age: 18
Race: Human
Gender: Male
DoB: 26th March, 1991
Appearance:
Hair: Xzavier's hair is short and spiky, with varying lengths all over, but on average, is no longer than four centimeters. He has light brown hair, which does portray different shades of brown in different lights. In winter for example, his hair appears to 'darken' slightly, in comparison to the lightness it emits during summer. His hair has been known to look rather 'surfy,' and 'spunky,' due to the waviness and varying lengths.
Eyes: Xzavier's green eyes go extremely well with his light brown hair, giving him the real 'sexy' appearance. Just like Xzavier's hair, his eyes seem to change colour slightly in different seasons, where they go darker in winter as an example. Though, this is mainly due to the darkening of his eye colour during this time too. His eyes are the usual shape, usually quite big in height, but nothing near out of the ordinary.
General appearance:
Xzavier displays the appearance of a normal eighteen year old man, but has been told at times that he looks younger than his age, due to his 'cute and childlike face.' However, in height, he stands at 5'10, still unsure if he is going to grow anymore. He doesn't look too muscular in his usual style of clothes, which includes jeans and surfy-styled t shirts (like a polo shirt with the buttons and light material), but if one is ever privileged to see him shirtless, he is anything but skinny. He wouldn't be classed as the 'bulky' classification, but he is ripped, and his body tone is evident.
His skin is described as 'soft' and 'smooth,' where a light tan is evident, due to him being out in the sun often. The colour of his skin meshes well with his light hair, and green eyes, especially during summer weather. His hair, usually in a surfy style, matches his surfy style of clothing accordingly. During the night, he is often seen in black jeans, a white shirt and a black jacket, which he has had since he was sixteen, and never found the need to get a new one since. He isn't usually one to feel the cold conditions, but he will wear a jacket for the 'fashion' reasons. He is usually seen with a cross necklace, and some type of bracelet. Many see this as 'girly,' but he doesn't. He likes the look of them.
He has a pentagram tattoo on his right arm, on the inside, just below the elbow and above the wrist. Many don't know the reason he went out and got this, but he usually tells them it 'looks good,' which was true, but the reason nobody knows is for protection from evil. He also has another tattoo on the top right side of his back, which resembles a cross, which also symbolizes protection from 'the evil within.' He also has a silver piercing on his left ear, and a piercing on his right eyebrow, though he doesn't always wear it.
Drives:
+Badminton, which he did play as a sport in his early teens. It was one of the only sports he did like, due to it being 'no contact...' Other than the racket of course.
+Quirky people always intrigued Xzavier, as he enjoys meeting unique people, and interesting people. He isn't into the 'boring' type of people.
+Romance has always been something he fell for, and liked doing. He enjoys the idea of candlelit dinners, watching a movie with his lover in his arms. This doesn't mean he isn't up for some 'fun' a lot of the time.
+Horror Movies, although scary, do prove amusement for Xzavier. He likes the thrill of getting a fright, and waiting in anticipation for something to occur.
+Humour is something Xzavier likes in other people, as he dishes out a fair amount himself, and expects some back. Boring people make him lose interest easy.
+An adventure is very fondly liked by Xzavier, where he will always find an adventure out of everything. He will never back down on one either.
+Art, being Xzavier's strong point, is obviously a strong like of his as well. He could sketch all day if he had time, as drawing always interests him. He wasn't isolated in his sketches.
+Creativity, like art, is a strong point and a strong like of his. He is also a creative thinker, which also ties into his 'quirky' nature.
+Partying is a major like of Xzavier's. He does enjoy the quietness of the day, but the buzzing sound of the music, and the alcoholic beverages can never draw Xzavier away from a good night.
Fears:
+Vampires is his biggest hate in the world. Although he hasn't experienced much of them, he knows what they are, due to the history of them. They turned his life upside down for the worst, and he has tried ignoring them from his life, but unfortunately, it just won't happen.
+Drowning is not only Xzavier's biggest fear, but also one of his biggest dislikes. He has experienced it before, and since then, never wants to go through the experience and pain of it again. The thought of losing one's oxygen and unable to regain it, always sent chills down his spine.
+Spiders are a fear of Xzavier's also, and therefore he doesn't share a liking for them. Their movements, their tiny eyes, their fur, all poses 'irk' for the young man.
+Insecurity is something he experiences many times throughout his life, and is therefore susceptible to liking it. He is always worrying what others think of him, or whether he 'belongs.'
+Guilt, being another experience of Xzavier's, is also another dislike he carries with him. Guilt is extremely painful for him to cope with, and he hates coping with it. He hates feeling like something that occurred was his fault.
+Ghosts have always scared Xzavier, due to them 'being somewhere they shouldn't.'
+Torture is something Xzavier is absolutely against. He hates the idea of someone being able to inflict so much pain on another for fun or to get what they want. A person doesn't deserve to go through that suffering.
+Sharp objects used against him. He has a fear for sharp objects stabbed into him, and the pain associated with it.
+Mind games. Xzavier hates being tricked, or lured into something. He doesn't like people taking advanage of him and his mind, and confusing him as a result.
Hopes:
Images:
Personality:
Xzavier is the type of person who is loyal to his friends, and would die for them. He is a martyr, who would ultimately die for what he believes in. He isn't the most academic person, and likes being 'cool', and being popular. However, after so many painful experiences within his life, he became less enthusiastic about anything in life, and didn't really care much for what happened. He is trying to get himself to a stable feeling, but it has proved extremely difficult throughout his life.
LOYALTY is where Xzavier is strong. Xzavier is always there for his friends, and will never leave them behind in any way. He can always be counted on for assistance, no matter what the problem or task is. He values friendship more than anything, therefore explaining why he is generally so loyal to those he loves. After the death of his girlfriend, he feels even more of a desire to be loyal to those he deeply cares about, and make sure nothing happens to them. He doesn't want a similar circumstance taking place in his life.
CONSIDERATION is one of the main aspects of his personality. He will never put himself before others, always looking out for those he cares about. He will even put more effort and care into a complete stranger than of himself, because that is just how he grew up. It could be concluded that he became so considerate because he saw the effect his bad influence of a father had on him, and his mother in particular. He never wants to turn out like his father, wanting to be his own person...And a supportive person at that. It has proved hard in his life, but he always trys to consider the views of others and respect them.
DESTINY is one of Xzavier's beliefs, believing that destiny is important in society, and gives hope to people. He always believes there is a reason behind everything, no matter what. Although he believes everyone has a destiny...A point in life, he also believes a person can change destiny at any particular time they wish. Making what they want out of life. For this reason, he usually dislikes fortune tellers and psychics, even though he hasn't came into contact with an actual one. He will not even try and get his palm read. He doesn't like knowing what life holds for him, whether it be true or not. If he dies, then it was meant to happen.
ISOLATION occurs regularily in Xzavier's life. Whether it be by his friends, or family, he feels left out, even if they are paying full attention to him. As a child, he was always on his own...Developing his own ideas, due to his abusive father. Since then, he hasn't had too many friends, which also contributes to this feeling of aloneness. He hates that he is so different to others because he has seen a vampire in his life, and feels like he isn't exactly normal anymore. He was seen as 'crazy' and an outsider within his life. Nobody wanted anything to do with him, and it has began to sink in to his mind.
RECKLESSNESS is Xzavier's main downfall. Even if he sees himself at a disadvantage, he will still commit to something, or perform an action which he knows could ultimately put himself in danger. He realises this, but he still continues to do it. If an enemy makes him angry or hurts someone he loves, he will go after them, even if it is clear that it is a trap. Maybe this is due to his slight impatience, or his need to protect those he cares dearly about. He rarely thinks about something before he does it, especially if it is a sensitive issue.
SENSITVITY, although a quality of Xzavier, is also a weakness. He will become emotional quite easily, though not over stupid things of course. If a loved one is hurt, he would be likely to shed a tear, or many tears for them. This can affect him in life, especially if a someone knows how to mess with his mind, which can make him extremely vulrunable. He was often teased by other guys for being a 'wuss,' when they had no idea what he had gone through.
DRAWING is an interest of Xzavier's. He will sit back, and draw, due to his calm and collected nature. Although he is impatient, when it comes to drawing, he is always patient and precise...Wanting it to be perfect. He would draw anything, even a pefect family that he didn't have...Or a lover he dreamed of, hoping one day he will get his wish. He uses drawing as an interpretation of the mind, and enjoys literature for this reason as well...Learning about the world around him.
EASY GOING is in the nature of Xzavier. He will never take things too seriously, and always tries to find fun out of something. Although when it comes to his past, he is always serious, anything else is a completely different story. Even with the experiences he has gone through in his life, he still tries his hardest to be 'funny' and easy going, but at times, finds it difficult. Hiding his past is what he seems to do best, and is not easily read by others.
REBELLION is also in the nature of Xzavier, where he will go against something if he disagrees with it strongly. Since the pain of his past, he has chosen to do things his way, and not follow the rules he doesn't like. Although he tries to still retain the consideration and kind nature he possesses, it becomes quite difficult in his life. He has little care for rules, and wants to follow what he choses in life. He believes he deserves that right, after everything he has gone through.
History:
XZAVIER EDWARDS was born on the 26th of March, 1991 in New York hospital, with an older brother born a year earlier. His mother was of French descent, whereas his father was American. He grew up not knowing that he had a brother, and his parents never told him. His father pressued his mother into having sex with her, and when it led to a child, he freaked out, not realising the consequences of having a child, due to being so young. They chose to adopt the child out, as Elle's parents were not too happy about the thought of helping to raise the child as well. They were finally ready for a child together, as they had moved in, and had another, this time keeping it. However, the problems didn't end there.
When growing up, he was constantly witnessing arguments between his parents, with them almost always clashing. He would sit in his room, trying to ignore the pain of the realities before him, but knew deep down that he couldn't. He wanted normality, and a family who loved eachother. He knew that wasn't going to be happening. His father was an alcoholic, and would be the main cause of arguments within the household all of the time. He wanted to be nothing like his father.
He would often be found crying in his room...The only time he felt some comfort. He was alone...And he liked it that way. He would often have faith in the future, or wish something good would come out of these experiences...Though he didn't have much hope at this particular point. His father didn't like it when he spoke in French, and if he did, would hit him. His mother was too scared to do anything, which left a young Xzavier powerless.
He attended martial arts lessons at the age of seven, due to his mother wanting him to learn how to protect himself. He was a fast learner, quickly grasping the concepts and the movements involved. Alongside this, he began sketching, which he found to be a very calming exercise. He drew his version of a 'perfect family,' which he knew would never come to life outside of his sketch. He had the sketching ability above all, and all were awed by his ability at such an early age.
During his school life, he used his natural confidence and looks to become 'cool' and popular, which helped him hide his home life, making him appear more 'normal.' He did hang around with the wrong crowds though, leading to him spending a lot of his time in detention, and in the principal's office. He saw this as a laugh though, not really caring much. After all, what could a little detention do? He got high marks in all his subjects, and saw seen to have a bright future. Unfortunately a very dark one was about to fall upon him.
His father died when he was fifteen, leaving him with his mother to raise him on her own. His father came home drunk, and abused his mother. Xzavier couldn't take it anymore, as he thought his father had changed, but realised he hadn't. He pulled his father off his mother, but didn't realise the anger he had unleashed upon him, sending his father tumbling down the stairs. He was dead. He didn't understand what had happened, or how it happened. His mother was shocked, saying that she didn't blame Xzavier, yet he knew that deep down, she did. His school heard about this, and instantly expelled him. They didn't want any bad reputations on the school, and looked to the best wellbeing of the actual school.
His mother worked full time as a nurse in the Los Angeles hospital, after moving there because of the limited opportunities in New York. She needed to support herself and Xzavier, realising this was the only chance. His mother had very late hours, which at the current time, was bad for Xzavier. He took advantage of it, hiding his guilt of killing his father by drinking with gangs, and walking around streets all night. He even smoked on occassion, not getting into a real habit of it, though. He didn't care for much in life anymore, carrying so much guilt and pain on his shoulders.
He took up kickboxing lessons to unleash the pain and guilt he was experiencing, as well as sketching on the sidelines. He began to feel different, and wanted different things in life. He had his first serious relationship with a girl, where they did play around quite a bit. He used this as a way to ease some of the pain he had experienced away, and never told her of his past. This helped him become stronger physically, but not emotionally. Although it eased some of the pain he was experiencing, it didn't repair it entirely.
When they were out one night kissing at a nearby lake, they were approached by a mysterious man. He tried to get him away, but he was a lot more powerful than he was, but he couldn't understand why. Then the face changed, and sharp white teeth were piercing the night's sky. The vampire killed his girlfriend, and there was nothing he could do but watch it sink its teeth into her neck and drain her dry. He became angry. He had lost everything in life, and didn't care, even more so than he already did. He tried fighting him, but was quickly defeated and thrown in the lake. He nearly drowned to death, before he was rescued, as result of someone hearing the screams nearby and calling an ambulance. He wished he was killed, and continued to question why he survived, and his girlfriend didn't.
He told his mum he was bashed by a gang and she was rather worried by this, and took serious observance over him as result. His plans of a normal life had even further shattered in his mind. On one occasion, he told his mother that a vampire had attacked him and killed his girlfriend, but she didn't want to hear it, and saw him as having some sort of depression as a side effect. She forced him to go into a psychiatric ward without his consent, and he was forced to take part in the program. He was released a few months later, after admitting that he didn't see any vampires, and it was created by his mind to ease the pain that he couldn't save her. Words were meaningless to him, and he knew he wasn't making this up. The few friends he still had from school wanted nothing to do with him anymore, seeing him as a 'freak' and an 'outsider,' because of the stuff he was believed to be making up.
He came out, still feeling like he was cursed. He lost his interest for school, seeing no point, as he would have no future anyway. He was declined his posistion in a few schools in Los Angeles because of him being deemed as 'insane.' His mother however, was passionate about him finding a new school and a fresh start, not only for them, but for him. She believed he was fixed now, but it was only because he never mentioned the vampire thing again. He had lost all trust for his mother, and never forgot her betrayal against him. He could no longer go to her for assistance or support. He was on his own...Again.
Although the fresh start seemed to be arising, it was not the case, as soon after, his mother had a sudden heart attack, which ultimately killed her. He was devasted by this, now with no family left in the world. He had inherited more than he imagined. His mother had been saving money from working as a nurse for his future education, as well as some hidden money he rightfully inheritied from his father. He felt more alone than ever, but realised he had to continue with his life. He moved to Sunnydale, like his mother originally wanted, and signed up for the school. He wanted the death to be behind him, with a fresh start in the near future. He was normal. He had to be.
Xzavier rented a hotel within L.A, and began working in a bar within the city, to earn extra cash. He didn't like doing this on top of school, but needed a distraction from his painful life. And suprisingly, it was working. He was not happy about continuing on with school, but wanted to make something of his life.
Name: Xzavier Hayden Edwards
Age: 18
Race: Human
Gender: Male
DoB: 26th March, 1991
Appearance:
Hair: Xzavier's hair is short and spiky, with varying lengths all over, but on average, is no longer than four centimeters. He has light brown hair, which does portray different shades of brown in different lights. In winter for example, his hair appears to 'darken' slightly, in comparison to the lightness it emits during summer. His hair has been known to look rather 'surfy,' and 'spunky,' due to the waviness and varying lengths.
Eyes: Xzavier's green eyes go extremely well with his light brown hair, giving him the real 'sexy' appearance. Just like Xzavier's hair, his eyes seem to change colour slightly in different seasons, where they go darker in winter as an example. Though, this is mainly due to the darkening of his eye colour during this time too. His eyes are the usual shape, usually quite big in height, but nothing near out of the ordinary.
General appearance:
Xzavier displays the appearance of a normal eighteen year old man, but has been told at times that he looks younger than his age, due to his 'cute and childlike face.' However, in height, he stands at 5'10, still unsure if he is going to grow anymore. He doesn't look too muscular in his usual style of clothes, which includes jeans and surfy-styled t shirts (like a polo shirt with the buttons and light material), but if one is ever privileged to see him shirtless, he is anything but skinny. He wouldn't be classed as the 'bulky' classification, but he is ripped, and his body tone is evident.
His skin is described as 'soft' and 'smooth,' where a light tan is evident, due to him being out in the sun often. The colour of his skin meshes well with his light hair, and green eyes, especially during summer weather. His hair, usually in a surfy style, matches his surfy style of clothing accordingly. During the night, he is often seen in black jeans, a white shirt and a black jacket, which he has had since he was sixteen, and never found the need to get a new one since. He isn't usually one to feel the cold conditions, but he will wear a jacket for the 'fashion' reasons. He is usually seen with a cross necklace, and some type of bracelet. Many see this as 'girly,' but he doesn't. He likes the look of them.
He has a pentagram tattoo on his right arm, on the inside, just below the elbow and above the wrist. Many don't know the reason he went out and got this, but he usually tells them it 'looks good,' which was true, but the reason nobody knows is for protection from evil. He also has another tattoo on the top right side of his back, which resembles a cross, which also symbolizes protection from 'the evil within.' He also has a silver piercing on his left ear, and a piercing on his right eyebrow, though he doesn't always wear it.
Drives:
+Badminton, which he did play as a sport in his early teens. It was one of the only sports he did like, due to it being 'no contact...' Other than the racket of course.
+Quirky people always intrigued Xzavier, as he enjoys meeting unique people, and interesting people. He isn't into the 'boring' type of people.
+Romance has always been something he fell for, and liked doing. He enjoys the idea of candlelit dinners, watching a movie with his lover in his arms. This doesn't mean he isn't up for some 'fun' a lot of the time.
+Horror Movies, although scary, do prove amusement for Xzavier. He likes the thrill of getting a fright, and waiting in anticipation for something to occur.
+Humour is something Xzavier likes in other people, as he dishes out a fair amount himself, and expects some back. Boring people make him lose interest easy.
+An adventure is very fondly liked by Xzavier, where he will always find an adventure out of everything. He will never back down on one either.
+Art, being Xzavier's strong point, is obviously a strong like of his as well. He could sketch all day if he had time, as drawing always interests him. He wasn't isolated in his sketches.
+Creativity, like art, is a strong point and a strong like of his. He is also a creative thinker, which also ties into his 'quirky' nature.
+Partying is a major like of Xzavier's. He does enjoy the quietness of the day, but the buzzing sound of the music, and the alcoholic beverages can never draw Xzavier away from a good night.
Fears:
+Vampires is his biggest hate in the world. Although he hasn't experienced much of them, he knows what they are, due to the history of them. They turned his life upside down for the worst, and he has tried ignoring them from his life, but unfortunately, it just won't happen.
+Drowning is not only Xzavier's biggest fear, but also one of his biggest dislikes. He has experienced it before, and since then, never wants to go through the experience and pain of it again. The thought of losing one's oxygen and unable to regain it, always sent chills down his spine.
+Spiders are a fear of Xzavier's also, and therefore he doesn't share a liking for them. Their movements, their tiny eyes, their fur, all poses 'irk' for the young man.
+Insecurity is something he experiences many times throughout his life, and is therefore susceptible to liking it. He is always worrying what others think of him, or whether he 'belongs.'
+Guilt, being another experience of Xzavier's, is also another dislike he carries with him. Guilt is extremely painful for him to cope with, and he hates coping with it. He hates feeling like something that occurred was his fault.
+Ghosts have always scared Xzavier, due to them 'being somewhere they shouldn't.'
+Torture is something Xzavier is absolutely against. He hates the idea of someone being able to inflict so much pain on another for fun or to get what they want. A person doesn't deserve to go through that suffering.
+Sharp objects used against him. He has a fear for sharp objects stabbed into him, and the pain associated with it.
+Mind games. Xzavier hates being tricked, or lured into something. He doesn't like people taking advanage of him and his mind, and confusing him as a result.
Hopes:
Images:
Personality:
Xzavier is the type of person who is loyal to his friends, and would die for them. He is a martyr, who would ultimately die for what he believes in. He isn't the most academic person, and likes being 'cool', and being popular. However, after so many painful experiences within his life, he became less enthusiastic about anything in life, and didn't really care much for what happened. He is trying to get himself to a stable feeling, but it has proved extremely difficult throughout his life.
LOYALTY is where Xzavier is strong. Xzavier is always there for his friends, and will never leave them behind in any way. He can always be counted on for assistance, no matter what the problem or task is. He values friendship more than anything, therefore explaining why he is generally so loyal to those he loves. After the death of his girlfriend, he feels even more of a desire to be loyal to those he deeply cares about, and make sure nothing happens to them. He doesn't want a similar circumstance taking place in his life.
CONSIDERATION is one of the main aspects of his personality. He will never put himself before others, always looking out for those he cares about. He will even put more effort and care into a complete stranger than of himself, because that is just how he grew up. It could be concluded that he became so considerate because he saw the effect his bad influence of a father had on him, and his mother in particular. He never wants to turn out like his father, wanting to be his own person...And a supportive person at that. It has proved hard in his life, but he always trys to consider the views of others and respect them.
DESTINY is one of Xzavier's beliefs, believing that destiny is important in society, and gives hope to people. He always believes there is a reason behind everything, no matter what. Although he believes everyone has a destiny...A point in life, he also believes a person can change destiny at any particular time they wish. Making what they want out of life. For this reason, he usually dislikes fortune tellers and psychics, even though he hasn't came into contact with an actual one. He will not even try and get his palm read. He doesn't like knowing what life holds for him, whether it be true or not. If he dies, then it was meant to happen.
ISOLATION occurs regularily in Xzavier's life. Whether it be by his friends, or family, he feels left out, even if they are paying full attention to him. As a child, he was always on his own...Developing his own ideas, due to his abusive father. Since then, he hasn't had too many friends, which also contributes to this feeling of aloneness. He hates that he is so different to others because he has seen a vampire in his life, and feels like he isn't exactly normal anymore. He was seen as 'crazy' and an outsider within his life. Nobody wanted anything to do with him, and it has began to sink in to his mind.
RECKLESSNESS is Xzavier's main downfall. Even if he sees himself at a disadvantage, he will still commit to something, or perform an action which he knows could ultimately put himself in danger. He realises this, but he still continues to do it. If an enemy makes him angry or hurts someone he loves, he will go after them, even if it is clear that it is a trap. Maybe this is due to his slight impatience, or his need to protect those he cares dearly about. He rarely thinks about something before he does it, especially if it is a sensitive issue.
SENSITVITY, although a quality of Xzavier, is also a weakness. He will become emotional quite easily, though not over stupid things of course. If a loved one is hurt, he would be likely to shed a tear, or many tears for them. This can affect him in life, especially if a someone knows how to mess with his mind, which can make him extremely vulrunable. He was often teased by other guys for being a 'wuss,' when they had no idea what he had gone through.
DRAWING is an interest of Xzavier's. He will sit back, and draw, due to his calm and collected nature. Although he is impatient, when it comes to drawing, he is always patient and precise...Wanting it to be perfect. He would draw anything, even a pefect family that he didn't have...Or a lover he dreamed of, hoping one day he will get his wish. He uses drawing as an interpretation of the mind, and enjoys literature for this reason as well...Learning about the world around him.
EASY GOING is in the nature of Xzavier. He will never take things too seriously, and always tries to find fun out of something. Although when it comes to his past, he is always serious, anything else is a completely different story. Even with the experiences he has gone through in his life, he still tries his hardest to be 'funny' and easy going, but at times, finds it difficult. Hiding his past is what he seems to do best, and is not easily read by others.
REBELLION is also in the nature of Xzavier, where he will go against something if he disagrees with it strongly. Since the pain of his past, he has chosen to do things his way, and not follow the rules he doesn't like. Although he tries to still retain the consideration and kind nature he possesses, it becomes quite difficult in his life. He has little care for rules, and wants to follow what he choses in life. He believes he deserves that right, after everything he has gone through.
History:
XZAVIER EDWARDS was born on the 26th of March, 1991 in New York hospital, with an older brother born a year earlier. His mother was of French descent, whereas his father was American. He grew up not knowing that he had a brother, and his parents never told him. His father pressued his mother into having sex with her, and when it led to a child, he freaked out, not realising the consequences of having a child, due to being so young. They chose to adopt the child out, as Elle's parents were not too happy about the thought of helping to raise the child as well. They were finally ready for a child together, as they had moved in, and had another, this time keeping it. However, the problems didn't end there.
When growing up, he was constantly witnessing arguments between his parents, with them almost always clashing. He would sit in his room, trying to ignore the pain of the realities before him, but knew deep down that he couldn't. He wanted normality, and a family who loved eachother. He knew that wasn't going to be happening. His father was an alcoholic, and would be the main cause of arguments within the household all of the time. He wanted to be nothing like his father.
He would often be found crying in his room...The only time he felt some comfort. He was alone...And he liked it that way. He would often have faith in the future, or wish something good would come out of these experiences...Though he didn't have much hope at this particular point. His father didn't like it when he spoke in French, and if he did, would hit him. His mother was too scared to do anything, which left a young Xzavier powerless.
He attended martial arts lessons at the age of seven, due to his mother wanting him to learn how to protect himself. He was a fast learner, quickly grasping the concepts and the movements involved. Alongside this, he began sketching, which he found to be a very calming exercise. He drew his version of a 'perfect family,' which he knew would never come to life outside of his sketch. He had the sketching ability above all, and all were awed by his ability at such an early age.
During his school life, he used his natural confidence and looks to become 'cool' and popular, which helped him hide his home life, making him appear more 'normal.' He did hang around with the wrong crowds though, leading to him spending a lot of his time in detention, and in the principal's office. He saw this as a laugh though, not really caring much. After all, what could a little detention do? He got high marks in all his subjects, and saw seen to have a bright future. Unfortunately a very dark one was about to fall upon him.
His father died when he was fifteen, leaving him with his mother to raise him on her own. His father came home drunk, and abused his mother. Xzavier couldn't take it anymore, as he thought his father had changed, but realised he hadn't. He pulled his father off his mother, but didn't realise the anger he had unleashed upon him, sending his father tumbling down the stairs. He was dead. He didn't understand what had happened, or how it happened. His mother was shocked, saying that she didn't blame Xzavier, yet he knew that deep down, she did. His school heard about this, and instantly expelled him. They didn't want any bad reputations on the school, and looked to the best wellbeing of the actual school.
His mother worked full time as a nurse in the Los Angeles hospital, after moving there because of the limited opportunities in New York. She needed to support herself and Xzavier, realising this was the only chance. His mother had very late hours, which at the current time, was bad for Xzavier. He took advantage of it, hiding his guilt of killing his father by drinking with gangs, and walking around streets all night. He even smoked on occassion, not getting into a real habit of it, though. He didn't care for much in life anymore, carrying so much guilt and pain on his shoulders.
He took up kickboxing lessons to unleash the pain and guilt he was experiencing, as well as sketching on the sidelines. He began to feel different, and wanted different things in life. He had his first serious relationship with a girl, where they did play around quite a bit. He used this as a way to ease some of the pain he had experienced away, and never told her of his past. This helped him become stronger physically, but not emotionally. Although it eased some of the pain he was experiencing, it didn't repair it entirely.
When they were out one night kissing at a nearby lake, they were approached by a mysterious man. He tried to get him away, but he was a lot more powerful than he was, but he couldn't understand why. Then the face changed, and sharp white teeth were piercing the night's sky. The vampire killed his girlfriend, and there was nothing he could do but watch it sink its teeth into her neck and drain her dry. He became angry. He had lost everything in life, and didn't care, even more so than he already did. He tried fighting him, but was quickly defeated and thrown in the lake. He nearly drowned to death, before he was rescued, as result of someone hearing the screams nearby and calling an ambulance. He wished he was killed, and continued to question why he survived, and his girlfriend didn't.
He told his mum he was bashed by a gang and she was rather worried by this, and took serious observance over him as result. His plans of a normal life had even further shattered in his mind. On one occasion, he told his mother that a vampire had attacked him and killed his girlfriend, but she didn't want to hear it, and saw him as having some sort of depression as a side effect. She forced him to go into a psychiatric ward without his consent, and he was forced to take part in the program. He was released a few months later, after admitting that he didn't see any vampires, and it was created by his mind to ease the pain that he couldn't save her. Words were meaningless to him, and he knew he wasn't making this up. The few friends he still had from school wanted nothing to do with him anymore, seeing him as a 'freak' and an 'outsider,' because of the stuff he was believed to be making up.
He came out, still feeling like he was cursed. He lost his interest for school, seeing no point, as he would have no future anyway. He was declined his posistion in a few schools in Los Angeles because of him being deemed as 'insane.' His mother however, was passionate about him finding a new school and a fresh start, not only for them, but for him. She believed he was fixed now, but it was only because he never mentioned the vampire thing again. He had lost all trust for his mother, and never forgot her betrayal against him. He could no longer go to her for assistance or support. He was on his own...Again.
Although the fresh start seemed to be arising, it was not the case, as soon after, his mother had a sudden heart attack, which ultimately killed her. He was devasted by this, now with no family left in the world. He had inherited more than he imagined. His mother had been saving money from working as a nurse for his future education, as well as some hidden money he rightfully inheritied from his father. He felt more alone than ever, but realised he had to continue with his life. He moved to Sunnydale, like his mother originally wanted, and signed up for the school. He wanted the death to be behind him, with a fresh start in the near future. He was normal. He had to be.
Xzavier rented a hotel within L.A, and began working in a bar within the city, to earn extra cash. He didn't like doing this on top of school, but needed a distraction from his painful life. And suprisingly, it was working. He was not happy about continuing on with school, but wanted to make something of his life.
