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Post by Jessy Jackson on Oct 4, 2004 1:07:45 GMT -5
"I'm unsafe whenever I shift. It's all to do with instincts. It can take ime but you can control them. I've done it with my panther form but with others I'm still extremely dangerous. But I don't get rid of myself." My tone became softer, and I hoped more comforting. "Come on Chrys. I'm not fully human either. It isn't a bad thing."
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Post by crystlis on Oct 4, 2004 19:50:10 GMT -5
"This is different... from what I've learnt, the only reason I exist is to carry..." I trailed off, then continued again, "... me around..."
"What do you mean? Your not making sence." Jessy asked.
"I am only here to carry that around inside me." I said pointing to the insect, "I am simply around until it chooses to emerge, and then, it does the thinking, not me... it has the power to take control of my mind whenever it feels like it, and there is nothing I can do to stop it when it happenes... so it's not a case of, learn to control it... it's only a matter of time before it takes full control of me!"
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Post by Jessy Jackson on Oct 5, 2004 0:59:51 GMT -5
"No it isn't. You have a soul. Your purpose in life...Well, I don't know what it is but it is not that." I turned. "Little help here Doc."
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Post by Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison on Oct 5, 2004 5:14:57 GMT -5
"Think I don't know about that, Chrys?" I said quietly. "Everytime I look in the mirror, I see a monster. I think of the things I did, back then...and it wasn't a demon that made me do it, it wasn't some thing inside me. It was me. My anger, my hate, my despair, all those dark emotions. Maybe it seems hard, but think of it this way. I made a choice. you had none. Which is worse?"
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Post by Jessy Jackson on Oct 5, 2004 12:01:14 GMT -5
I listened, knowing how great the significance of Doc's words were. He didn't talk about Francois a lot. I knew it was hard for him. I didn't want to consider why. I just hoped Chrys got the message.
(((Face it Chrys, your charrie is cool. We won't let you die.)))
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Post by crystlis on Oct 5, 2004 19:12:54 GMT -5
"I don't have a soul. The REAL me does. The one living inside me!" I said, "Without it, I'd be dead... It's the only thing that lets me survive."
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Post by Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison on Oct 5, 2004 21:45:36 GMT -5
"So you're the Incredible Hulk," I said off handedly. "There's a trigger, there always is. And we've got the two beings on the entire planet that might knkow it," gestured at Holo and the Computer.
(((I know you want to kill Crys off, but that don't mean I'm making it easy for ya.)))
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Post by crystlis on Oct 7, 2004 20:20:09 GMT -5
"Look... you have to decide on which decision you are going to make, time is running out quickly, there is already an expidition heading to... well you know." Holo said, "Think about what you are doing, do the risks outweigh the possibilities?"
I thought about my final decision for a while... Holo wasn't going to wait much longer... I thought that the Computer needed my decision urgently. I thought of the dangers that I could put people through if I was to stay... but also the things that Doc and Jessy said.
'Really, I was only born a few months ago, and I've eaten the only family I ever had. So I'm not really leaving any loved one's behind, but Jessy and Doc... they don't want me to go, they are actually true friends!' I thought hard, wondering what I should do. This wasn't going to be easy.
"I need you two to find the others while I think of what I am going to do. You will know my decision if I walk out of here... please do this for me..." I asked.
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Post by Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison on Oct 7, 2004 23:12:22 GMT -5
A suspicion, an inkling on what he was up to. Not enough to draw a conclusion.
"Don't do anything til we get back, okay?" I said. "I know it's hard, but there's a way around this."
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Post by Jessy Jackson on Oct 8, 2004 1:22:18 GMT -5
As I turned I hissed to Doc,"There has to be some halfway measure like turning into a butterfly or something doesn't there? The others can help us right?"
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Post by Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison on Oct 8, 2004 8:19:46 GMT -5
"He needs to make his own decision, Jess," I whispered back. "Ohterwise, how does that make us different to the guy tham made him, or the...whatever it is inside him. Whatever it is, we stand by him. And if his decision doesn't change, then we mourn him like we would any of out other friends. I don't like it either, but in the end, it's his decision."
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Post by Jessy Jackson on Oct 8, 2004 12:20:06 GMT -5
"It's just-" Tears came into my eyes. "How can someone do that? Decide their life was useless, throw it away. It just seems so pointles."
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Post by Jackson ''Doc'' Ellison on Oct 8, 2004 19:22:16 GMT -5
"It's depression," I said. "Knowing that you've done something, or are capable of something, that's worse than reprehensible. You think there's nothing else you can really do but die, the only way to handle it. It's..." I closed my eyes. I was speaking from experiance. "Come on. Let's go get the guys. And hope he doesn't do something stupid."
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Post by crystlis on Oct 9, 2004 0:55:46 GMT -5
I took a seat and thought about the decision I was going to make. I knew that Jessy and Doc would try to convince me not to go through with this... but what else could I do to protect them? I though over the goods and bads of the situation for a while.
Holo interrupted, "You have to decide! Time is running thin!" She told me urgently.
I made my decision... hopefully there would be enough time for the others to get back before the Computer did the inevitable.
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Post by Jessy Jackson on Oct 9, 2004 2:10:42 GMT -5
"Doc, what if he's...he's gone by the time we get back?" I asked through silent tears.
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