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Post by Maya on Jul 6, 2004 11:37:08 GMT -5
((right after 'havent been here in a while'))
I sat atop a gravestone in a secluded area of one of LA's many graveyards. I had a stake out, but my mind was not on vampires. I fiddled with the stake as i considered what had happened earlier, when Joshua had told me how he felt. I had wanted so much to say something along the lines of 'ditto'... but i couldnt if i didnt mean it... and i didnt know if i would have. Again tears spilled as i wondered what the hell the world was trying to do to me. It should be a simple question- do i love him or not? But instead the answer came up as...
I dont know.
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Post by Azoth (Kyler) on Jul 6, 2004 20:58:26 GMT -5
(((ooooo, I went to the graveyard half-way through 'havent been here in a while' so I could just re-appear her here,how about that?)))
I raised from an empty grave, where I had been sitting and thinking about what had happened in the human leasure area, I couldn't quite get my finger around why I was consumed by that memory, but I knew it had to be something to do with Aredhel, but what... what could it be? I wen't over it over a million times while I was here, but got disturbed by the sound of Maya walking...
"So, something troubling you too?" I asked when I found her...
A place like a graveyard is a place I would know like the back of my boney hand...
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Post by Maya on Jul 7, 2004 10:47:01 GMT -5
"Zeroc." I said in shock, only just keeping my balance on the gravestone. I sighed, "Yeah." I replied to his query. "Yeah i guess it is..."
He looked curious (if thats possible for a skeleton) so i shrugged, "Its... complicated..."
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Post by Azoth (Kyler) on Jul 7, 2004 20:38:06 GMT -5
I decided to use wisdom to keep this going, at least it would keep my mind of what had happened earlier, I knew humans where interested on queries of life and insignificant stuff like that, so I tried to use it:
"Life itself is complicated, yet we all think we understand it..." I said, I couldn't think of anything else.
"You may not trust me... but, tell me what's going on, it's not like I don't have complicated problems as well..." I said...
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Post by Maya on Jul 8, 2004 7:16:52 GMT -5
I frowned at him, but eventually shugged, what did it really matter if i told him?
"Joshua said he loves me." I told him. After a moment of silence, he replied,
"...Forgive me if i do not understand your human ways... but is that not supposed to be a good thing?"
I chuckled,
"Yeah, It is, a good thing... only... i couldn't say it back."
"You do not love him?"
"I dont know if i love him. I care about him... more than anything... but...." I paused, "Does even the fact that i dont know mean that i dont?" I asked.
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Post by "Rogue" Annie Amina Cross on Jul 8, 2004 12:30:25 GMT -5
((Not a good time to just pop in is it?  )) |
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Post by Maya on Jul 8, 2004 12:47:10 GMT -5
((lol, maybe not))
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Post by Azoth (Kyler) on Jul 8, 2004 19:29:41 GMT -5
(((Great, leave me with the hard question... let me do this the best I can...)))
"Well," I started, I didn't know much about love, I havn't felt the emotion in over 1000 years! But I tried to help anyway, "It could be because you've got other things going through your mind and don't have time for love until they are taken care of..."
"But if you arn't sure, then..." I trailed off for a second, then thought of something, "... You probably have to think of what you DO know, and go over it... I have seen that you two are in love... as you call it, but, you have to be sure of it, otherwise, it will only hurt you more..."
'Just like it used to hurt me...' I thought when a faint memory passed by in my head.
(((I'm no good at this love stuff, hope that was the right thing to say, (please keep in account that Zeroc IS a 1200 year old undead) )))
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Post by Maya on Jul 9, 2004 10:54:07 GMT -5
((lol. thats fine))
I sighed, "I just... it's so confusing..." I said. "I mean... thing is... i've kinda had a bad time with... with people i care about...." why was i talking to him about this again?
"A bad time?" He repeated.
"Yeah..." I continued, "See... people i... people I love tend to get hurt."
He looked at me, saying nothing for a moment, before, quietly, saying,
"Your family."
I nodded,
"Yes, and others."
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Post by "Rogue" Annie Amina Cross on Jul 9, 2004 14:49:06 GMT -5
((I should put up Rogues 1500 thing. It's a very good read. My friend who use to lie Buffy[But now hates it] loved it. She had some of the same feelings that your char is having. But than something happened. It's kinda sad and yet it had to be done. Very good read  )) |
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Post by Azoth (Kyler) on Jul 9, 2004 21:16:05 GMT -5
"Others, such as friends..." I asked/continued her sentence.
I remembered those that I cared about... my brothers, which would all be raised in due time, and another, which I felt, I shouldn't care about as much as I did...
"Could I ask you a question?" I asked Maya...
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Post by Maya on Jul 10, 2004 11:25:25 GMT -5
"Sure." I replied, actually pretty curious as to what it was he wanted to know...
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Post by Azoth (Kyler) on Jul 11, 2004 2:46:31 GMT -5
I sat there and wondered how to say this without giving too much information away...
"If... say, you might... feel for someone... like you don't know what you feel... exactly, but you know that... it's a good emotion... what does that mean?" I asked hesitantly, not exactly sure wether or not I could trust her...
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Post by Maya on Jul 11, 2004 5:00:07 GMT -5
I managed to crack a grin,
"Bonesy got the hots for someone?" I teased. He looked at me blankly, and i rolled my eyes, sighing. "I'd say its a good thing... i mean... do you think this theoretical person might possible have feelings they're not sure they have about you too?" Goddess 'theoretical' conversations are confusing.
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Post by Azoth (Kyler) on Jul 11, 2004 19:44:01 GMT -5
I sat there, thinking about what she had just said... also wondering why Haitti created me to have human emotions in the first place, I didn't understand them, I didn't know how to use them...
And what did 'got the hots for someone' mean?
"The thing is..." I said, "is I am quite sure, that she doesn't, but, I don't know how to tell..."
I didn't think anyone would actually like me... or love me for that matter... I didn't even know why I 'loved', as they say it, her anyway, Toraan was quick to guess who, but couldn't give me any information as to what to do... as he didn't understand the emotion either...
I thought of what to say next... hoping that Maya would say something first... therefor leaving me out of doing the hard bit...
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